the stubborn bass line

once you get past that part when you don't want to smile
it aint dat bad.


TYPICAL.

mucho tiempo

so how many times do i have to remind myself that i can't get anything done without doing it?

if every day is a struggle, i should do something. but... i guess.. why not???? i can barely dial the telephone, let alone chase after the unknown. and... imagine the struggles i have yet to struggle?? regardless.... you gotta take the good with the bad. and i like the thought of the good that i want to feel.... i've become accepting of bad times, if i just remember... that little sliver of silver. what there is that makes me smile.

what chance

i'm just
24
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24
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 and it's better than fort... naw, it's not much better than anything.

a song for freedom

i wish i knew
what to do
when i aint
usin paint
why can't i
justify
sitting down
without a frown


hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

i could...

be depressed about driving, working, and repetition
be let down with myself for not going after dreams
let myself be consumed more by what i have and have not done

or

use this as a means to an end

...i choose you, pikachu

who knows what i can do, but i hope it's something.

until then, i will do this.

dear penpal

i'm told where you live is really quite far
would you please send directions
on how i can get where you are?

day 2- slowly (slowly!)

i almost called this day three. not right...
the green grass starts to grooooow.

i've been home for a week now. i realize it's only a week, but there are definite changes. good changes.

i haven't run 3 miles since... ever?? that's good.

hopefully tomorrow brings the same. i wish it was hot out.

i'm also really glad to be a part of a fun, NICE, talented cast with Evita. it's my favorite show, in my dream role, and i don't want it to suck. and it won't.

i just need to finish watching black swan again.. perfect! ok, night.