what chance

i'm just
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 and it's better than fort... naw, it's not much better than anything.

a song for freedom

i wish i knew
what to do
when i aint
usin paint
why can't i
justify
sitting down
without a frown


hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

i could...

be depressed about driving, working, and repetition
be let down with myself for not going after dreams
let myself be consumed more by what i have and have not done

or

use this as a means to an end

...i choose you, pikachu

who knows what i can do, but i hope it's something.

until then, i will do this.

dear penpal

i'm told where you live is really quite far
would you please send directions
on how i can get where you are?

day 2- slowly (slowly!)

i almost called this day three. not right...
the green grass starts to grooooow.

i've been home for a week now. i realize it's only a week, but there are definite changes. good changes.

i haven't run 3 miles since... ever?? that's good.

hopefully tomorrow brings the same. i wish it was hot out.

i'm also really glad to be a part of a fun, NICE, talented cast with Evita. it's my favorite show, in my dream role, and i don't want it to suck. and it won't.

i just need to finish watching black swan again.. perfect! ok, night.

day 1

suc-cess. guess that's all there is to say about that. i love hiking. i hate the impractical risk of bears. and foxes. i need a knife. it felt good running. perhaps working out without a hangover is easier? haaaa i would like to take this time to address 7/8. it is difficult on paper. but if you just feel it and sing it, it has such a good flow to it. rollin rollin rolliiin. i hope no one thinks i'm "abandoning." as always, phones go both ways. as does facebook, email, text, skype (?), blogs (?), whatever. "girl, do you" girl, DO you? beard, itch. that's... all...!

day 0

hi blog, it has been a long time. i tend to write blogs in my head and never write them because i have no computer. so tomorrow is day 1 of my "grabbing whatever by the whatever" fixing it all up physically and mentally. umm... i have goals that i will be setting and i am requiring myself to actually acheive them this time.... hahaha running is something i've always wanted to do, being that my dad and sister are crazy runners. i don't think i'll be doing any marathons or anything, but i want to do 5/10k's by july. that's a goal, yes? i need to tan and work out so i can be second best to antonio in the che department. i need a job that will hold my interest. haha.. yes. ultimately, i need to live with devotion, happiness, and care. things have been rock bottom for us lately, and we are doing our best to perfect this all. "this rock... this rock has been waiting for me my whole life" maybe i should call this "127 days" ... hahaha that would be by august. not soon enough. bye!